October 6, 2007
Not Meant to Be
Some things are just not meant to be.
Question is, am I strong enough to accept it. Often, things that start out as just a normal part of your life at some point cross the line to obsessive, compulsive, out of control. And before we know it, we are clinging to things–and people–because we have somehow believed they are meant to stay. Its the high,the high of having found your destiny that makes everything else fade away.
But in my 28 years I have yet to learn, that I should know when to walk away. Know when not to take less than I deserved. Easier said than done. Most of the time, I am a strong person. Very few would say otherwise. But I am not that strong. Not yet. Maybe in time we will realize, that though we are loved the best way they know how, we deserve better than this. And maybe, just maybe, we’ll have the strength to leave. Still, they say you don’t kick the habit until you hit rock bottom, but how do you know when you’re there? Because no matter how badly a thing is hurting us, sometimes letting it go hurts even worse.
I have found through the years that there can only be one explanation. God in all His wisdom grants us what we need but He does not see the need to grant us all that we want.
Some things are meant to be. And some things will never be.
